He Loves Me NOT....

He calls me at midnight
Too drunk he keeps saying his name
Paranoid saying how he misses me
Unaware of how late it is
He proclaims his undying love
I almost believe him
But then I remember
The day I told him I loved him
And he went to bed with another girl
I remember how he loved her
While I watched
Hurting and dying a little bit everytime I saw him with her
I remember when I loved him
And my calls to him went unanswered
I remember when I loved him
And called him at midnight
Drunk and too sure
And how he just laughed
And told me to sleep it off
I remember how I loved him
And I remember how he didn't love me back
Now I wonder whet the deal is
He says he loves me
I know I love him still
And yet.....
At midnight when he drunk dials me
Im just not sure if I believe him....

Quote: Love is best when reciprocated.... Otherwise love is just empty.

#Friends Dont Let Friends Drunk Dial | Plain White T's.

Xoxo.

Islands In The Stream.

D.M,

I look at couples all around
I miss the us we used to be
The long phonecalls
The endless texts
How we just couldnt let each other go

I wonder what went wrong
With a love so sweet
With the promises we made
To always be together..?
Hold on let the storms pass
The tears will go and the smiles will last....

I wonder how u feel
I wonder what u smile about
Or who u smile with
I wonder if u moved on
Or if ur still holding onto us
Like I am?

I hate these empty thoughts
I hate that you are not with me
I cant get over the thought of u in love with another girl
I hate that I lost you
That I tired so fast
Of fighting for the love we had
I hate that you let me go....

I wonder if i love you
I wonder if u love me
I torment myself with thoughts of you
I lose my sleep cz u aint here
I hate my days cz they just as bad as nights
I wish wed be us again
In love and happy as before
I wish id tell u this to ur face
But i fear rejection is ob the verge

I hate to let u go
Love of mine
But what to do
Oh love mine
To let u be
To pray u smile alot these days
To let u go
To set u free
To say goodbye
And wish u well....

M.E.

Quote: Don't look back. That's not where you're going.

Islands in the stream |  Kenny Rogers & Dolly Parton.

Xoxo.

Taking stock #2.

So we have gotten to the next time to take stock again. So far so good, im loving my life a little even though most of my relatipnships seem rocky again. Im just trusting that God will intervene now.... Coz Im leaving it all in His very capable hands. Onto taking stock again..... Lego!!!!!

Making: Progress with my school.work. Im having exams next week and Im hoping all goes well. So help me God :-)

Cooking: Alot less these days. My roommate loves cooking so I leave that to her. She is a really good cook.too.

Drinking: Lots of coffee. I dont know why but I cant seem to say no to a good cup of coffee... Its just divine!!!

Missing: A good high. And vodka. And getting a good fucking from someone who.knows what to do and all.the right things to do a woman.... Oh My!!!!

Reading: I've got your number by Sophie Kinsella. I recently discovered her work and she writes really well and also humorous...I have a feeling she intends for her main characters to be blonde!!!

Wasting: Nothing. Im taking every thing in stride and making progress in most areas of my life.

Sewing: Nothing yet :-(:-(:-(

Wishing: That just dreaming something up would make it reality. And that I had a good man all to myself. And that I would get done done with school sooner.

Enjoying: Every minute Im alive. And loving every bit of it.

Liking: The possibility of being independent and a good job and a good life in a town on an island with the cleanest beach in kenya....by now y'all know that Im obsessed with Lamu. Its serene and magnificent.

Loving: The way that my hair is behaving. Its natural and so far, its surviving without blowdry or any heat... I want it to stay natural without any heat...so far so good.

Wondering: How im going to pass my exams without reading for them. Focus bana imenipotea.....

Hoping: That a miracle will happen to help me get over and done in school considering that our lecturers are acting a bit like they dont wanna work...

Marvelling: At how stupid some people tend to be. ..

Smelling: Coco cabana. Delish.

Wearing: Light clothes during the day and layering during the night since it gets sooo cold.

Following: some imdian soap.on tv... Its a funny one that.

Knowing: That its ok to fall again and again. Thats life.

Thinking: About the mystery man of my dreams... He sure is evasive tho'.

Feeling: Optimistic that life will just be ok if I work hard.

Bookmarking: very weird blogs.

Trying: To let bygones be bygones.

Listening: To Marit Larsen.

Watching: tv alot. Im not staying at my place and I ledt my computer there so I have to get used to just tv for a while.

Quote: A good deed a day goes a long way in changing someone's life. So do a good deed today and wait n c the results.

If a song could get me you | Marit Larsen.

Xoxo

Things that have pissed me off today...

1. People who chew loudly at their food.

2. Control freaks.

3. Politicians.

4. Kenya Power & Lighting Co.

5. Being horny but can do nothing about it or maybe I can...... & Singlehood.

6. Unreciprocated love.

7. Xfm for not having a frequency where I am at the moment.

8. Brokeness.

9. Insomnia.

10. Cows & Dogs.

I have no quote for this post.

So What | Pink.

Xoxo

At the moment:...

Im living life with the following in mind:

Live life to the fullest, but be wise about choice;
never regret what you've done, but learn from it;
never stop improving yourself, you learn everyday;
Love what you do and have fun doing it;
Remember the past, but live for now;
And importantly, there is no time like NOW.

THOSE are the words of Stober who played club football for Santos, Hellenic and Orlando Pirates and was a goal scorer of note.
He retired at the height of his success as a result of injury.
He did not allow the setback to deter him and he has got on with life.
He is a golfer of note now and taking on challenges wherever he can find them. Like skydiving.

Ps: I am at that stage where I want to take control of my life and be responsible.

Quote: when the going gets tough, the tough get going...

Sand in my shoes | Dido

Xoxo.