Friday 27 February 2015

A Man and Trouble...

The night is here and Im alone
I want to believe that you will come
To give me company and hold me close
And love me till I fall asleep

I look at your side
I miss you much
I wish you were here I see your face
To hear your sleepy voice say you love me
To hear your heart beat as you sleep
To love me till I fall asleep

I fall asleep thinking of you
My sleep is not good at all
I dream of things I fear
I wake up to your empty side
I hate it that you are not here
To love me till I fall asleep

I'll lie awake as I can't sleep
I'll wait for you to get home soon
I know you will come back to me
Im praying hard you find your way to me
Im sorry I was such a bitch
Im sorry I made you leave
Just come home to me my love
To love me till I fall asleep

The thought of losing you is killing me
I cannot stand another minute away from you
I cannot live without you babe
There's a million reasons why you should let me go
Id understand but broken into a million pieces
A piece for a reason
But babe Im coming to you
Im coming right where you are
To say that Im sorry and please take me back
And Im hoping you'll understand
Maybe forgive me
Im coming to you to take you home with me
Im coming to love you till you sleep...

Quote: The things two people do to each other they remember. If they stay together it's not because they forget, it's because they forgive.

The Heart Wants What It Wants | Selena Gomez.

Xoxo ...

Saturday 14 February 2015

Say something, ANYTHING.

Say something,
Anything
Im losing hope
That silence
That awkwardness
Say something,
Anything
So I know
How to feel
How to hope
Coz that silence
Will be the end of me
Say something,
Anything
Not that you love me
Though that's what I want to hear
Not that you miss me
Though that would restore my hope
Not that you're lost without me
Though I hope you are
Not that your nights are cold
Though I hope they are ice cold
Not that your life has no meaning anymore
Just like mine
Though I hope it has lost all meaning
Not that you forgive me
Though that would be music to me
I would dance to it forever
Not that you want me back yet
Id sing you a song if it was that
Even though we both know I croak instead of singing
Not anything sweet
Or comforting
Or regretful
Or forgiving
Say I was wrong
That I made a mistake
That I was stupid
Say what you feel
Let your anger out
Hate me now if you must
Call me names
Crucificy me with words
But don't go
Don't leave me
Im weak and you're my strength
Im dumb and you're my knowledge
Im lost and you're my compass
Im blind and you're my sight
Im thirsty and you're my water
Im hungry and you're my food
Im in pain and you're my relief
Im empty and you're my fill
Im in darkness and you're my light
So say something,
Anything
Just don't let me loose.

Quote: A man who can put on a condom in the dark is ready to be a father.
             - Bikozulu.

Lazizi | Sauti Sol.

Xoxo.

Tuesday 10 February 2015

50 Shades....

1. What is your bestfriends name?
        - I am my own bestfriend. Turns out that way I dont get very disappointed with anyone.

2. Who would you throw into the bermuda triangle?
      - There are a few people.... Depends on who goes first here....

3. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
      - Closed. Somehow I dont like waking up in the middle of the night to a dark closet incase my clothes turn into zombies.....

4. Do you take shampoo bottles from hotels?
      - I paid for them. Right? So I take them..... The tissue too :-P.

5. Have you ever stolen a street sign?
       - Not yet but now that you asked I just might :-).

6. Do you always smile for pictures?
         - Ofcourse....

7. Do you dance even without music?
         - I cant even dance to save myself but I do dance when alone. Even without music.

8. How many people have you slept with this week?
       - hahahaha..... Really now? PASS!!!!!

9. What Is your song for the week?
         - Colbie Caillat's Try..... Cant get enough of this song!

10. Do you still watch cartoons?
         - YES!!! All the time.... How else will I entertain the child in me?

11. Where would you hide your treasure if you had some?
          - Not under my bed and I definitely wouldnt tell you or it wouldnt be hidden anymore would it?

12. Heels or flats?
       - Flats any day any time.... But only coz im hopeless with heels.

13. What movie could you watch over and over and still enjoy?
        - Pitch perfect and Save the last dance 1....

14. Last person you kissed?
         - Kev ..... Hmmmmmmmmmm.....
Il just shut up right now.

15. Would you ever strip or pose nude for a magazine?
         - I seriously can't say no or yes now coz I can't rule it out... It got Kim K where she's at right?

16. When was the last time you wrote someone a letter on a paper?
      - No idea.

17. Can you change oil in a car?
        - No but when I own a car I will.

18. Are you dating?
         - Not really..... I don't know. Maybe. Its complicated even to me.

19. Describe your ideal proposal.
         - On a dhow in the middle of the ocean with the sunset on the background

20. Are you lazy?
          - NO! Just that Im on relax mode lots of time..... I know people who are lazy......

21. How many languages can you speak?
           - 4 and a half......

22. Are you stubborn?
         - Hahaha yes i am. Especially when i really want something.

23. Ever watch soap operas?
          - sometimes. But I find them too mainstream and predictable..... Rich Boy meets poor girl and falls in love then rich girl who boys parents like is jealous and poor girl and rich boy are separated but end up together.....

24. Nicknames?
            - Bunny and Sley.....

25. Ever used a gun?
           - not yet. I fully intend to though..... Considering the number of assholes in my life #sigh

26. How old were you when you got your first kiss?
           - 16 and it was all tongue and saliva.... Eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww!!!!!!

27. What color was the last bra you bought?
           - blue with white polka dots and lace.

28. Does anyone know the password to your email?
          - nah, who would care?

29. Do you want any tattoos ?
           - I just got my first two and yes, I want many more ;-).

30. Any strange habits?
            - Sleeping with the lights on, taking sleeping pills with coffee, biting my nails, chucking my toenails.....

31. What's the worst abuse you have inflicted on your phone?
         - using it while its charging. Maeeennn......

32. What happened between you and your first boyfriend?
         - Hahaha.... Long story but he cheated, i found out and ended it. And now he is my very good friend.

33. How old do you want to be when you get your first child?
        - 27/28/26

34. Are you a risk taker?
         - Lets just say that I think a life without risks is boring and not fulfilling at all.

35. What happened the last time you cried?
          - I found out that someone I really likes was an asshole ..... Haha. But aren't they all?

36. Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
         - life is unpredictable and that's the joy of it all. Im enjoying the curve balls being thrown my way. I like a good challenge.

37. What's your worst habit?
           - trusting too easily.

38. What's your favorite thing about your crush/bf?
       - His smile and his body....... *licks lips* #teamfisiress lol

39. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
         - #hides Yes.

40. Do you have any strange phobias?
           - achluophobia...... Fear of darkness
       -demartophobia .....fear of skin disease
        - acrophobia .....fear of heights.

41. Do you miss anyone right now?
          - Yea. My mother. I miss everything about her and hope to see her soon ......

42. What are you in love with right now?
          - Myself, Make up especially lipstick..... , Him.

43. What would you want to know about the future?
         - How my hubby will look like and will I have four kids? And a whole lot of other stuff.

44. Have you already planned your wedding?
        -Give me the groom and a day to organize it And you'll see. But which girl hasn't yet planned her wedding if she's ever been in love?

45. Do people ever take you seriously?
         - not really. Maybe coz Im always joking or smiling but its hard to be serious when life should be fun.....

46. Why do you have a blog?
         - because without writing id drown in my own thoughts or go insane and its the only way I know how......

47. How old are you?
         - old enough to know that life is wonderful and exciting even when Im sad or down..... Old enough to be wise..... Old enough to know the difference between love and lust.

48. What is the one thing you will never do again?
        - Trusting so easily and blinding.
        - falling for someone who is already taken.

49. If you were the opposite gender, what name would you pick?
          - Terrence ..... Its hot and i have a thing for long names......

50. Which celebrity would you change your life with?
         - Terrence J.... But dude is a man n am a girl...... #sigh

Quote: Be yourself. Everyone else is taken.

Its who you are | A.J. Michaelka.

Xoxo.

A Love Story...

He is not handsome
Not the type I give my number to anyway,
And nothing is soo eyecatching about him
Maybe his smile, it has a little potential...
Or his smile.... His really cute smile
The light it brings to his eyes...
Then I think that maybe its his charm
The pure boyish charm that he wears with pride,
That same charm I fall for everytime,
Again and again, though not with him...
Or mAybe its his voice?
His jacket?
His confidence?
So yes, not the type I look at twice, that's a waste of sight...
Then he laughs
And cocks his head to me
Looking straight into my eyes heavy with alcohol from yesterday, today and last week,
I feel like he is reading my mind
I would lower my eyes but then he has me entranced, locked...
On his eyes, on him
I laugh when he looks away,
He laughs and for a moment Im lost in his laughter
But still he is not the type I look at twice or give my number to anyway....
What's better than a laugh at the end of a long night of heavy drinking to keep the hangover at bay, right?
So I laugh along
Until my bestfriend disappears with his bestfriend
And she is too busy to tell him her number, the one he was to take for his friend coz his phone is off and my phone is off and i just can't remember whether the last three numbers of her phone are 768 or 678 so then he asks me to give him mine so i can send him her number when my head clears....
My first thought is no.
But then my bestfriend likes his friend and I owe her this one little favour
And I have nothing to lose
So I laugh as I tap out my number
Eager to get home
Eager for my bed
Eager to put my heavy head down
It was nice meeting you, he says
I smile and hurry to the cab
Eager to get away from him
From that smile
From that charm
And as my head hits my pillow and my thoughts turn in for afew hours of sleep,
I don't think about him
Coz he is not the type of guy I look at twice or give my number to....
I wake up to the ringing of a phone
Annoyed to be woken up so quickly
But then its evident the sun is out
An afternoon sun
And a strange number flashes on my phone
Im blank as I answer it
The voice unfamiliar
Sleep on my mind
Wait, I know the name
I smile
He called
Even though he is not the type of guy I look at twice or give my number to.
He wants to have coffee sometime
Maybe dinner
Tonight? No Im still hungover...
Tomorrow?
Maybe | yes
Yes I say
It's a date. He says
I smile.
Our first date
Yet,
He is still not the type of guy I look at twice or give my number to.

Quote: Let nothing come between you and your hearts desires. Because what the heart wants,it gets.

Walk Away | The Script.

Xoxo.